Truman and June 2

On Friday May 23rd, 2008 at 10:05 PM I finished reading Truman by David McCullough. THANK GOODNESS! It took me around six months and a lot of effort. I read it because I have this lofty goal to read a biography on all of the Presidents of the US. I was going to read them in chronological order, but I guess I am not now, since I went from Jefferson to Truman. (I have read ones on Washington, John Adams (also by McCullough), and Jefferson.) I loved all three of those guys, especially Adams and developed a crush on his son and can't wait to read more on him. I do not care for Truman that much. There are a few things that I admired, but mostly not so much. Some things I didn't care for which he did were fighting in WW I because he he was old enough to stay home, a farmer, and his families provider. He left his sister to work the farm pretty much all by herself, also, he shouldn't of even been in the military because he had such terrible eyesight but talked all the doctors into signing his papers that let him go to war. He was a pusher of the social programs (a staunch New Dealer), he thought the UN was the best thing ever, talked about world peace but dropped the atomic bomb and decided to send troops to Korea, and I still can't figure out why that war was ever fought. I don't think people fight in the jungle during monsoon season with extreme heat and humidity over something so arbitrary as communism and the 38th parallel. I am sure something else was going on. But what do I know, I am only 19 and have only read one book that touches the subject and watched a few MASH episodes (which mostly seem to deal with teaching the women how to give birth, which I am sure they already knew how to do with out any help from any man). He was also a party man, it was always about the Democratic party. I always knew I didn't care for the party system and this book just pushed it more (in conjunction with this years election...if I never hear the names Obama, Clinton, and McCain again it will be too soon).

On another subject, June 2nd has come and gone and I will not be going to the University of Hawaii this fall. The only way I could get there this fall is if I somehow come into some money allowing my to live off campus, and I don't see that happening. So I don't know what will happen. I might go to BYU-Idaho, but I don't really have any money for that either. So we'll see. I am working on some ideas, but I really don't know yet what to do. I keep saying that I am happy and optimistic because I want to be. I am sure that God must have something in mind for me and it is probably great, I just wish He would share it with me. I guess I will just have to keep asking and trying to do what all I can think of to get the answer. I sure will be glad when my actual emotions catch up with what I keep saying to myself and others, because right now I just want to cry. But I want to cry with someone but they are all at work. So I don't even have that! But I'm happy, I'm happy, I'm happy. It is okay that I can't go. I am fine with not being able to go. I'm happy, I'm happy, I'm happy.....happy.....happy....happy, happy, happy, happy, happy, happy, happy, happy, happy. Word has lost all meaning!

Good night.

SL